Being Real

            I’m totally stressed and tired out right now for no apparent reason, send help.

    Being real is hard.
            I look at other bloggers, writers, and people in general, and they all look so cool, like they have it all together. It makes me wonder what vibe I give off when people are reading my words…

            I mean, if people read my posts and imagine me to be a sloppy mess of a teenager in desperate need of the prick of a magical spindle, or a bite from a poisoned apple (a hundred year nap, that is effortless? Yes, please), or for all math and science books to be burnt ASAP, they’d be right! 

            But the fact that anyone might think something other than that ^ or “Sheesh, that girl loves books,” totally blows my mind.

            I mean, I’m just me. Gray Marie, a fourteen-year-old girl who has a passion for creative things. A girl who believes that Jesus Christ died on the cross to save her and everyone else from sin and eternal damnation. A girl who would almost rather face a zombie apocalypse than that test or quiz for school!


            And I don’t know how I could ever be anything else.

            I still struggle though, and I’m sure you do too, because sometimes in the rush and bustle of life, we lose ourselves.  

            The tragedies. The sadness. The depression. The fear. It’s just so easy to let it all slip away, like sand falling between the cracks in your fingers. Going, going, gone.

            It’s maddening. One second you’re so sure of who you are and why you’re alive, and the next you’re unsure.

            Then comes the crippling anxiety. Are you still you? Or have you changed completely? Do you still have a voice that needs to be heard? DO PEOPLE ACTUALLY CARE AT ALL ABOUT WHAT YOU CARE ABOUT?

            The isolation sets in, and you feel like you are all alone—the only person in the universe who is like this.

            You’re not. I promise. And I want you to know that, I want everyone to know that.

            A girl once asked me why I talk about myself the way I do,  how I laugh at myself and the mistakes I’ve made.

            It’s because I’ve learned that it’s better to laugh at yourself, and because I want people to feel less alone.

            I know how it feels to be lonely. I know how it feels to hurt. I know how it feels to be an outsider.

            Sometimes I still find myself trying to keep secrets. I want to hide the ugly side of me, to erase my imperfections. I don’t want people to see the flaws that I have.

            I have realized something important though, I have wasted so much time trying to hide my mistakes, that I have neglected learning how to fix them.


            Being real is hard, it means being brave. It means admitting the fact that I’m not perfect.

            No one is perfect.

            I’m a mess. You’re a mess. We’re all one big disaster.

            But you know what? That’s okay. Every good story has a hero, but if everyone in the story was perfect, who would the hero save?

Whew! I hope you enjoyed my rambling, and my very Christian themed post, which I didn’t intend to be Christian themed... *shrugs* this is what happens sometimes when you’re a Christian writer, it sneaks into your writing! XD
What do you think about being real?
Happy Writing,


Dear Writers, (Warning: This is a rant).

     Before we start, I want to say that this started out as a light-hearted rant, and it turned into a full-blown rant, and then it turned very serious. This is something that has been on my heart all week...


       Have you ever read a book that was good?

       No, I mean really, really, REALLY good! And while you're reading it, you're think something along the lines of this: This book is SO good, I'm going to recommended it to EVERYONE!
     And then you turn the page and the writer starts dropping f-bombs. And you're just sitting there like,
     Well, thank you, dear writer, now I won't recommended this book to half of the people I was thinking of!
        We all have that one book. *Cough, cough* The Fault in Our Stars...

         And look, I'm not going to tell any of you what's too much and too far in, err, swear words usage. Because we all have different views and lines to cross, but here's a clue, if it would embarrass you if your dad read it aloud to your whole family, maybe you should re-think...

         Okay, I know several of y'all right now are thinking, Gray! I write YA, it's not meant for my five year old sister!!!  Okay, fine. If you don't want your parents or grandma to read it, because of a some *cough* scenes, and some *cough, cough* words..

          Dear writers, (because this rant is directed towards you lovely folks!)

It does not make your book look cool if you drop the f-bomb or any other bombs for that matter! If your character flips off another character in your book, I'm not going to track you down to tell you how cool you are!

          And look, I'm glad you know how re-production works, I really am. But PLEASE, could you not, oh, I don't know, PUT A THOUSAND OVERLY GRAPHIC SEX SCENES IN YOUR BOOKS. Darlings, come here, come closer, let me tell you something very important... NO ONE WANTS TO READ YOUR PORN-TURNED-INTO-WORDS GARBAGE! *Gasps* I know, it's surprising!

          Seriously. Stop it. Get some help.

            And am I the only one who pictures John Green sitting at his computer like,

            "Finally I moved out! Now, I am no longer under their rules. I shall fill my books with profanities and swearing, and Momma can go bleep, bleep, bleep, herself!"?

           And then there's the glorifying things like alcohol and drugs, which, if you do this, I'm sorry, you're just stupid. THIS STUFF KILLS PEOPLE, IT SHATTERS PEOPLE'S LIVES, AND HERE YOU ARE GLORIFYING IT LIKE A COMPLETE IDIOT. Like, do you not realize how harmful this stuff is? Why are you calling it good or fun? Yeah, drugs look fun sometimes, but then when you open your eyes, you see it all. People passed out on sidewalks. People selling their bodies for crack. People with tracks on their arms-slaves to drugs. Children being taken away by CPS, because their parents loved a substance more than them. Don't you understand? This is reality. This is the harshest reality, and here you are, calling it good, like the blind child you are.

           So asides from the rant, let's address the true issue, us. I've noticed something, more and more teen writers are joining the dark side and writing sex scenes, swearing, and glorifying things like alcohol and drug abuse. And I just don't understand it at first, but then when I think about it, it hits me...

         They are trying to be relevant, to be cool, to be the hot stuff on the block. But close your eyes, and imagine a world where books are good and wholesome again. Where if books have to have swearing it is used correctly and the sex scenes are only subtle hints that honor the holiness of marriage, not the stupidness of adolescence. Where drugs and alcohol are called out for what they are, a demon in the form of glory. But most importantly, where the innocence and love of friendships flourish in the books.

         Doesn't that sound awesome? Guess what, we can make that dream a reality. We are the next generation. We are the next storytellers. We are the next bestselling authors. We don't have to follow their rules. Let's break them, and make new ones-better ones. Let's break the mold and the stereotype of teens being irresponsible people who can't do anything to change the world, because we can. And we will, whether it's for bad or good. I am tired of being silent. I am tired of letting stuff like this go. I am tired of being passive. It's time to make a change, but I can't do this alone, this is a call to arms.

      What if we started saying "no"?

      No, I will not push your agenda.
      No, I will not be cool by writing cuss words.
      No, I will not write your sex scenes.
      No, I will not write in a way that makes it normal and socially acceptable for teens to hate their family. 

No, I. Will. Not. 

       Dear world, dear writers, dear everyone,

I am a teenager. And I am doing what teens do best, I am rebelling.

Who's with me?

EDIT: 10/4/17

Due to the fact that this post is still getting over ten pageviews a day, I thought it would be important to announce to the newcomers that this rant up here ^ started a whole website. Check it out here, or go to www.rebelliouswriting.com

Thank you,for all your support!


I LOVE Grammar, Okay?

        Last Sunday I was at youth group and we were playing Hang Man, and it wasn't just the one word Hang Man, it was the full sentence version. Anyways, this kid got up there and he wrote this one the board: _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _

        In the end it translated to this (we didn't die, btw,):  
Andrew said it is raining and there is a hole in my umbrella.

       When the fellow was writing that on the board, I said that since the sentence was longer there should be at least one comma, that got me a bunch of eye rolls and sighs. Then, when we realized that the first two words were “Andrew said” I informed the guy that there should be quotations marks. This got me even more eye rolls, a girl jokingly told me to “shut up”, and a guy muttered under his breath “Grammar Nazi”.
       This got me thinking… Okay, maybe I was being a bit annoying, maybe. But punctuation is important, all of the kids there were above six grade, so you'd think they would at least use quotation marks occasionally.

       I also don't like the term “Grammar Nazi”. Nazis were these horrible people who imprisoned, tortured, and murdered so many innocent Jews. Why do we use that title so lightly? Since when do people get compared to a Nazi for loving grammar? How does this make any sense?! Why can't people just call me a “crazy grammar lovin' writer” and move on? Why is it always “Grammar Nazi”?!?!? I don't hail Hitler or anything, so labeling me anything with “Nazi” in front of it is incorrect.
          I remember when I was in six grade in T&T, this kid in class would always get there early and write Tom (fake name), was here. But instead of writing: Tom was here.
         Like an intelligent well-learned six grader, he would always write: Tom wuz har.
        And it wasn't like he was stupid or anything, he's actually very smart, but he just didn't want to write correctly, because he thought that was cool or something… And I don't mind abbreviations, I mean, I use them all the time. But writing incorrectly when it's the same amount of letters, it doesn't make sense… Anyways, I remember sneaking into the classroom early, getting a red marker, and correcting his grammar. We were sort of friends at the time, so I'm pretty sure he knew it was me, which just made him do it more.

           I can't stand when people put “kool” instead of “cool”, or “K” instead of “Okay”. When they put “K” it makes me confused, I thought we were talking about something else...not Potassium! If you want to annoy me, that's how you do it...
         I actually don't mind lingo like: “A lila fasta when runnin'” instead of: “A little faster when running”. I think it can be fun or cute, but if that's how that person always writes 24/7, yeah… it won't take long before my eye starts twitching, my fists start curling, and my eyes start watering. Just please, no.
         Well, guys this has turned out to be more of a rant than a discussion...sorry! Wait, who am I kidding? I'm not sorry!

                 Are you what they call a "Grammar Nazi"? Why or why not?

Happy Writing,


Hi There! And Welcome To My Blog!!!

      Hi. My name is Gray Marie Cox, I am a teen writer. I have written two books so far, Enemy of the Dawn and Forest Zooks. I love books, which is why I have decided I want to spend my whole life writing them. I also love helping fellow teen writers out, and that is why I made this blog. On here you'll receive encouragement and advice about writing, from one teen to another. Hopefully, you'll learn something new or be inspired, or at least you'll find my cheesy jokes amusing! Due to a poor internet connection, I will probably only post once or twice a week. Please check out these other blogs: anythingnovelsociety.blogspot.com I am one of the authors, and we review books. ahomeschoolnerdstale.blogspot.com  is my friend, Elena. On her blog she tells about her life as a homeschooled Christian teenage girl, who is a nerd. And alillyingodsgarden.blogspot.com, my friend, Lilly blogs about writing, bible verses, and a bunch of other very interesting stuff. My friend, Anne is at bedoneinlove.weebly.com. She blogs about her cats and bible verses, so if you want to see pictures of cute cats, be sure to click on the link! So yeah, I hope you enjoy my blog!
Blessings and peace,