Update (Ramblings) on Life

      Ahaha... I have nothing to post so I'm just going to ramble and hope that none of y'all notices, do you think that will work? (It probably won't if I keep this intro... let's call it a 50% chance).

        By the way, I do have more content coming up! I just purchased a few books and I plan on doing a book haul when they come in, I'm also planning on reviewing a few of the books on here because they are indie books I've been wanting to get my hands on for quite some time.


      So, life. That messy, horrible, draining, beautiful thing that fills our lungs.

       I think it's safe to say that I'm learning lots of important lessons this year, from working on my learner's permit to more spiritual and emotional lessons.
     The biggest thing I'm learning and struggling with right now is that it's okay to be vulnerable  in front of people. I'm one of those people who will listen to other's problems and do their best to comfort them, but won't really share my own that much.

       I'm honestly a walking, living paradox. I have no filter or shame when it comes to a lot of things but on things like my present day struggles I'm more silent.

      I just don't want to force my struggles on others and be a bother. But recently I've been breaking down in public, and that's hard. Crying in front of people is hard. Admitting that I'm not always happy and sure about everything is hard.

      But through this I've realized how amazing some of my friends are and I also hope that going through this time of darkness and doubt that I will someday be able to encourage and help someone going through it.

      This season of my life is just really draining, and I just have to remember to trust that night doesn't always last forever and that my sunrise is coming soon, if that makes sense...
^^Photo credit to yours truly a.k.a me.
     Onto a little bit less emotional things!

     Although I haven't been writing as much as I'd like, I have been reading... a lot.

      As I mentioned in my last post I am currently reading The Raven Cycle, which is AMAZING.
^^^Me after reading the first three books.
      I'm also reading Stray by Elissa Sussman, I decided to take a slight break from TRC, although The Raven King is sitting on my shelf calling my name.
     But yeah. I expected something much more cliché when I picked up this book, but I'm glad I gave it a shot because I'm halfway through and it's very interesting.

       I've also had pretty interesting conversations this month online and offline... We'll start with the ones I have pictures of...
^^My friend and I talking about food because #priorities  
^^Gotta love random texts, but same, girl, same.
MY FRIEND'S ESSAY WON A CONTEST! This isn't really weird, I'm just super happy for her, you go, girl!
      Guy at my teen advisory board meeting for my library (yes, we have a teen board): Okay, okay, guys. Since we can't bring peanut butter cookies to the party can we get a jar of peanut butter and some cookies and spread it on the cookies for the kids who want them?
      The rest of us:.... ew, no.
      Guy: But, guys...
     Girl: NO, JAMES (fake name).
     Librarian *walks up*: Have y'all decided on the food for our Harry Potter party?
     Me and other girl: Yes, we have butter beer (cream soda with fancy labels), jelly beans...
    James *raises hand*: I HAVE AN IDEA!!
     Teens: NO, JAMES.
     Librarian: Now, come on y'all, everyone gets to pitch in! Now, what ideas do you have, James?
    James: Can we get a jar of peanut butter and some cookies and spread it on the cookies for the kids who want them?
     Teens: *laughter* *groans* *shaking of heads*

     My little brother who is new to the board: *looks like he's about to give up on life*
     Librarian: ..... that is really gross, James.

       *At Sunday school after taking the Love Language test*
     Me: My results were quality time and words of affirmation!
    Guy sitting next to me: Same, I like it when people take the time to tell me how amazing I am, even though I already know.

       New foster sister, who is six years old: Gray, why are you always in your room? Why don't you go outside?
    Me: It's because... I'm a vampire.
    Sister: *whispers* I knew it! *slinks away*

     Six yr foster sister *puts sparkly heart glasses on me as I'm leaving youth group and walking her to the car*: There, now you look real pretty. 
      Me: *walks past guy friend in the parking lot who starts laughing*: DO YOU THINK I CARE, DUDE?
     Friend: I do think you care, just a little! *still laughing*
    Me (this was valentines day btw): HAVE FUN BEING FOREVER ALONE.
    Friend: I'll find someone one day!
    Sister: Tell your little boyfriend to stop shouting like a crazy man.

       S O , yep. That's my life!
 Are you excited for my book haul (bet you can't guess what I bought!)?
What funny conversations have you had with your friends?
What books are you currently reading?
How's life treating you?
I want the details, fam. XD
Happy Writing,



    What a year. When I first got permission to blog, I remember logging on, hastily picking a random theme, and typing out my first post ever. (I actually made another blog just like my very first blog look, laugh at me here, and Ivie, this is counting as my first post revisited XD).

      My hands shook when I wrote that first post. I didn’t even know why, it wasn’t like I was going to get more followers than the three people that I knew in real life that blogged, right?
     Wrong! I am so happy I was wrong. Blogging has been a whirlwind of emotions, I quickly realized as time went on that I had no idea what I was getting into when I first pushed that ugly publish button.

      I’ve made so many great friends and acquaintances, and I have connected with some amazing people (a.k.a. you guys!) I honestly don’t want to imagine what life would be like if I didn’t know you guys on here, and I know that sounds sappy, I’m sorry, but it’s true.
       Thank you all so, so much for everything. Thank you for reading my ramblings. Thank you for leaving comments. Thank you for sending me encouraging emails. Thank you for being a wonderful friend.  Thank you.
        I’ve learned more about myself than I imagined possible this year, and a lot of it is because of this blog and you lovely people.

….I’m not crying, nope, not at all.

Gosh, this blog has also turned me into a softie….

*cue awkward transition because I have no idea how to change the mood*

It is….





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Onto the....

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So, I know some of y'all are probably wondering when I'll run out of content (I know I am!) and I still have a few ideas, which include...

 A possible interview/Q&A with a guy.

         I've been thinking of doing something like this for a while, since I've noticed that a lot of guy characters seem a little two-dimensional in YA, and I know that more than half of my readers are female (sorry guys, y'all are a minority here!) so I was thinking that since guys can be confusing to us gal writers, that perhaps y'all would have some questions to ask a guy in the name of writing?

       I can drag a guy friend into this, I'm sure, I just need to know if any of you have questions and are interested.

      Possibly more controversial book reviews.

       I really enjoyed reviewing The Hate U Give and I don't mind reading books that most Christians would stray away from if it's in the name of rating it honestly and according to my standards. I've been thinking about reviewing Moxie by Jennifer Mathieu (a super feminist book) on here, if anyone's interested. And whatever else pops into my mind! 

       Another heart to heart post. One of my favorite posts I've ever written is Being Real, because I broke out of my usual happy posts and was completely honest about my struggles. I've been having a hard time with life right now. Here is actually a picture for the non-existent post:
          I don't know if I'll ever post it though, I don't even know if I can capture my feelings in words. I also don't want to burden anyone with my problems or more depressing thoughts, although I hope to put a positive spin on it like last time... 
     Also if any of you have anything you want to see on here, a book review, my opinion on something, etc. contact me here!


       Once again, a HUGE THANK YOU TO EVERYONE.💖

        To many more years to come,


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      Warning: I'm super awkward, and my phone isn't the best quality when it comes to filming. X_x

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