7/20/19

Snippets of Life


These moments ended in a blink of an eye and then they became memories... 

Can you believe summer is almost over? Oh no. Welp, here's to the memories.


Meeting people who love Jesus as much as I do and wondering if I've somehow ended up in heaven because, wow, this feels like home.

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A man's voice cracking in pain as he tells about the death of his four-year-old son, and the strength in his wavering voice as he tells us how he realized how much it must have hurt God to lose His own son for us.

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I like talking to people in the dark because I think I can hear them smile.

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Adoring music so so much.

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Praying out loud in the moonlight, the feeling of my friends' hands clutching mine, the dock swaying under me in the water, and the crushing weight of everything falling off my shoulders.

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Waking up to shrieks in the car because one of my friends drooled on another one of my friend's jeans while sleeping.

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My friend and I starting a writing club and coming up with wacky rules because every good writing club needs to be quirky.

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We write our fears with sharpies on rocks and then chuck them into the river smiling at the satisfying splash. I can imagine them sinking and settling at the bottom, our fears drowned for a moment.

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My three-year-old brother announcing that my friend is his new favorite because "she's so nice and watches me play basketball".

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Deciding to just hold a guy's hand to avoid the awkward situation and because he's been staring at me, waiting, hand outstretched for an uncomfortable amount of time.

Struggling to focus on the prayer because his gruff hand over mine feels wrong and no, thank you.

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That awkward winky face you make when you see your friend taking a picture of you to use as your contact. Also, she didn't just send it to me, she sent it to the group chat, lol.

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Singing hymns at the top of our lungs as we walk through the pasture while the sun sets.

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My mom's texts that read, "You're going to tell me everything, right?".

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My friends and I trying to follow along with a Bob Ross tutorial and losing it as we fail terribly.

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The sound of a baby bird chirping in the shoebox under my arm as I climb a tree to place it back in its nest.

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Asking a friend how he's holding up and watching tears fill his eyes as he says that he's okay, he's okay. And I say, you will be okay.

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The ding, ding, of my phone going off as my group messages explode.

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Looking up and seeing a full glowing moon and getting too excited at its beauty, thus pointing it out to everyone.

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My sister telling me that she and her friends have decided that I am, in fact, pretty.

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I can't do this is murmured so many times by my friends and I, but yet we do. We get through it all the same.

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Goofy poses for photos.

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Setting up Bible study dates and meeting and reconnecting with people I hope to study with.

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Watching Andy Griffin and eating popcorn on the couch in my oversized t-shirt and coffee pajama pants with my siblings.

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Meeting adults that I 10000% respect and look up to and having good conversations with them about life and the Bible and how the eye works.

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Realizing how much the Lord has done for me and how little I've done for Him.




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47 comments:

  1. This post is sooo beautiful, Gray! I love how summer and just /life/ it is. <333 So happy to read one of your posts again!!

    Danielle @ Snapper

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  2. Gray, these memories are so beautiful! I really loved reading them. <3

    "Looking up and seeing a full glowing moon and getting too excited at its beauty, thus pointing it out to everyone." << Yup, this would be me as well! XD

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  3. I love these random snippets OH MY YES. I love random things and these are all wonderful!

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  4. Interesting post. But there is one thing I don't understand you said, "I'm wandering if I have ended up in heaven because this feels like home." That doesn't make since to me. How can you feel at home on this earth. There are times when I do feel as if I feel a touch of heaven here but that is only if I am in the presence of God poring my heart out to him and feeling his holy spirt cover me. But I will never feel at home in this world. I could never feel like this world is my home. But oh how my heart longs to be in heaven with my lord Jesus. I can't wait to dwell with him and to see his face. Just how can feel content in this world that is so against God and is just so wicked?

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    1. It's just poetic expression, I don't feel at home in this world, especially with the majority of people being on the narrow path. That sentence was just trying to express the feeling of being around people who give you hope. Look at it as a hyperbole . :)

      Also, the Holy Spirit cannot cover you. The Holy Spirit speaks to us through the word. Salvation is something you know not something you feel, I'd warn you to not write stuff like that since it can be misleading.

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    2. Gray,
      I could have huge talk with you and no matter how much I gave you Bible verses and no matter how much I tried to convince you that water baptism is not needed to be saved you would never listen. But I am going to be honest with you... You in comment in the past that you knew how we felt and that you used to be just like us. The truth is that you never were like us. Way before you joined Church of Christ I found my self wondering if you were a true Christian. I truly wandered because I really din't see any fruit in your life. So many people today confuse being convicted with getting saved. I know these are straight forward words but... I don't believe you ever were truly saved. And also don't think you are saved now. You aren't fulfilled. Jesus is the one that fulfills us. Everyone has this little spot in there heart were nothing can full it but Jesus. I am fulfilled. I have NO doubt in my mind that I am saved. You said it's not something you feel but something you know. It is both. I can feel it and I know it. I know I am saved.

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    3. Let me tell you how I got saved... well I grew up a preachers daughter. I have known all of the Bible stories since I can remember. I've been going to conferences ever since I can remember. I knew the Bible so well I could preach a sermon and the age of 7 maybe even before that. I have known Psalm 1 for as long as I can remember. I always said I was saved. I believed in God. I believed that God created the world that he sent his son Jesus to die for me and that he rose from the grave 3 days latter. I knew it. I believed it. But I never really made Jesus my lord and savor. As I kept getting older. I went to church every Sunday. Sometimes there was an alter call. I would always find my self questioning if was I saved. I would always ay to my self. "Yes you are saved. If you were to die you would go to heaven." Then one evening when I was 9 years old we watched a movie about John Wesley. He was trying to earn his salvation. He was always frightened. He was always scared that if he was to die he wouldn't go to heaven. When one time a man asked him if he was saved he answered "Yes" but with hesitation. One night he finally got it. He gave his life to the lord and he was forever changed. That really hit me. I remember standing in my room getting ready for bed and just crying because I knew if I was to die I would not go to heaven. I asked my mom to come to my room and asked her to just tell me everything. She just started talking to me and told me the gospel. And that night I excepted Jesus into my heart. Right when I finished praying I just felt so happy. I felt the Holy Spirt come into my heart. That was the happiest time of my life and I can still feel that joy. Of course there are times that are hard and I don't feel super happy and bubbly because being a Christian is hard. But I feel fulfilled. I feel and know that I am saved. And you and everyone at your Church would say that I am not saved because I have not been water baptized in the Church of Christ. Then what is this fulfillment that I feel? What about all the people that they got there life turned around because of God and they were not church of Christ. How did they do that if they never got saved? I can tell you without any daut in my mind that I have never questioned if I am saved since that moment. Have you ever heard of Keith Green? His life was horrible. He tried everything to fulfill him but the only thing that could ever fulfill him was God. You should read the book about him. It is called No Compromise the life story of Keith Green. Now I know y 'all can pull out a bunch of verses that say you must be baptized to be saved. I agree with that. You must be baptized with the Holy spirit to be saved. There is more than one kind of Baptism. Now I know y 'all would pull out the Bible and show me Ephesians 4:5. Yes. One lord one faith one baptism. One baptism that saves. Why am I tell you this? One because I want you to hear what you have probably never heard before. Two because I care about you. That is why I am telling you all of this. I want you to feel the fulfillment that I feel. I have been praying for you. If you reply to this I will probably not write back. I don't want to ague you. I just want you to read this and think about it. I ask God to reveal his truth to me. All I ask is that you do the same.

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    4. You're right, I wasn't a Christian before. In truth, I was a bad kid.
      However, I am now and I know I am because I have obeyed and am currently obeying the Bible and that is all I can do. Ever.

      Salvation is something you know not something you feel. It's a fact not an emotion. Read James, Romans. Tell me, have you truly obeyed the Bible?
      I understand you are a preacher's daughter, which is why I even if you wanted to study this in real life I wouldn't do it with you because at the end of the day you will go home to your parents who love you enough to try to shelter you, even if it's from the truth without them knowing.
      I'd also rather read the Bible than any opinion of any man.

      Your comments come from emotion. You feel attacked because I don't agree with you, however, according to what you believe I am a Christian, if I get to heaven God's not going to turn me away because I did too much. I know what I believe, I know why I believe it. I have book, chapter, and verse for everything. I spent countless nights studying the bible, not sleeping, crying, I wrote a whole paper on why baptism wasn't needed for salvation and had it given back to me covered in Bible verses that proved me wrong. I've changed my whole life for this, threw away so much for this, walked away from past bad friends, and deal with people who attack and tear me down whether on purpose or accident by meaning well but not doing well like you.

      Also, my "church" which is THE church btw (romans 16:16) doesn't say you aren't saved, we don't have to. The Bible and Jesus said it perfectly. Col 2:12, 1 Peter 3:21, Mark 16:16, Acts 19:1-, Romans 6:4, Eph 4:5.

      I'm not going to go back and forth with you because I'm not leaving what I know to be truth and I know you aren't ready to consider that what the denominational world teaches is false, it's a scary thing. I hope you read those verses though, and I hope you'll consider why the "sinner's prayer" which isn't in the Bible will ensure your salvation and why you can just disregard what James, Galatians, and Hebrews says about faith not being enough.

      Have a good day.

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    5. Also, what verse do you go off of? Why was the Eunuch Baptized(Ac 8:38)? Why were the people in AC 19:1-7 Re baptized after they realized the baptism of John was not the same baptism that Jesus brought by dieing on the cross and being buried and resurrected ROM 6:1-12. By the way the Bible says there is one Gospel! We Both can't Be right! And that means that you can't go to Heaven while someone else believes that it takes belief and baptism for salvation which alone is also wrong, it's multiple steps. Have you ever read EPH 2:13? .....Made nigh by the blood of Christ. "What can wash away my sin, nothing but the blood of Jesus. If you want another passage it's John 3:3-5 Jesus tells Nicedemus that a man hast to be born agaian. 1 Peter 3:20-21 ..Baptism doth also now save us.
      It says even baptism, but even was added in to make it make sense. Look don't take my word for it. How do we access that blood? Read the Bible!

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    6. The Greek word “baptizo” means immersion. Not always immersion into water. There is a baptism of the Holy Spirit. You can be immersed into the Holy spirit. John 3:5 "Jesus answered, Verily, verily, I say unto thee, Except a man be born of water and of the Spirit, he cannot enter into the kingdom of God." In this verse it is talking about being born one by water which is being born by your mother and then being born by the Holy Spirit. Mark 16:16 "He that believeth and is baptized shall be saved; but he that believeth not shall be damned." In this verse it says "He that believeth not shall be damned." It does not say he that believeth not and is not baptized shall be damned. All of the verses that you read I read. Reading them just makes me feel stronger about what I believe. Contexed is everything. The Bible does talk about water baptism a lot but it also talks about the baptism of the Holy Spirit a lot!
      As a Christian when we are baptized it is to show everyone around us that we have made a commitment to follow Jesus. When a Christian gets baptized it is showing that they will die and be buried. That is when they go under the water but they will one day rise. Coming out of the water. Acts 16:30-33 "And he brought them out and said, “Sirs, what must I do to be saved?” So they said, “Believe on the Lord Jesus Christ, and you will be saved, you and your household.” Then they spoke the word of the Lord to him and to all who were in his house. And he took them the same hour of the night and washed their stripes. And immediately he and all his family were baptized.
      When the jailer asked "What must I do to be saved?" They didn't say believe in the Lord Jesus, be baptized and you will be saved. No. They said "Believe in the Lord Jesus, and you will be saved." And then, after being saved they went to be baptized. Not to make there salvation complete but because they wanted everyone to know that they had made this decision to follow Jesus. Gray, I prayed for you and your family. One night I prayed for an hour and a half. I want you to also know Jesus as your savior. Just like the Jailer. Jesus shed his blood for us on the cross. So that everyone can be saved. His blood paid the punishment for our sins and water doesn't need to be a part of our salvation. Jesus paid it all. His blood was shed because he loves us. He wants us to know him and he is enough. We don't need Jesus and water. Jesus made water. He was there at creation. He has enough power to save us. And Shayne I do read the Bible. Every day. My family has also been reading the whole new testament this Summer. I have been learning a lot of great stuff! Reading the Bible in true context just makes me more sure every day that what I believe is true. And what about you Shayne? You have not been baptized in the Church of Christ. So that means that if you were to die right now you would go to hell. Why can you even be telling me these things if you yourself are not even truly saved? And I have been baptized. So what is it? Why am I not saved? Do I have to be baptized in the church of Christ? So is it the Church that saves y 'all? It just doesn't make any since. And let me say THANK YOU Shayne for giving me all of those Bible verses! The more I read them the more I feel sure that I am believing what is true!

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    7. How do you think people become saved? That is the real question, I don't believe baptism is the only step, however it is required just like belief is.

      On your point of Mark 16:15-16, your neighbor tells you that he will pay you to weed and mow the lawn, but if you don't mow the lawn he won't pay you.
      Will you still get paid if you only mow? No, he said both steps in the first part, he doesn't need to repeat something you already know. It's simply logic.

      In Romans 6:3-9, it describes being buried with Him in baptism. Do you bury an alive person? If you were already alive in Christ, why would you need to be buried and raised?
      Look two verses down in Acts 16:30-33, he brought them out and immediately they were baptized. Why? If it was just a cute little symbol why the emphasis?
      Jesus is my savoir, he added me to His church when I obeyed Him. Gal 3:27
      I've never claimed to have "saved myself", that is false, but I do claim to have obeyed God, because faith without works and obedience is dead and therefore meaningless. James 2:20-24: "...Ye see then how by works a man is justified, and not by faith only."

      As for Shayne, I told him that you were probably going to address him, thus, I am not going to speak for him except to say that he is still a child. If one of your little brothers dies before he can accept Jesus into his heart according to y'all, he's not going to torment, neither are other children who don't fully understand the Bible yet. My brother, Shayne loves the Lord, he is one of the smartest and kindest guys his age I know, and he has a good character. However, he's still a child, Acts 8:12, talks about baptizing men and women, not children. He is still figuring things out for himself and I believe that soon he will be ready to step out from under the faith of other's to take up his own cross, just like you. I don't believe you are going to torment right now because, and I may be wrong, but I don't believe you have fully stepped away from the opinions of your parents and searched on your own (which is fine, I don't want to come across like I'm belittling you for something that is normal and meant to protect you).

      I am not continuing this discussion because I see it has turned into a debate, I didn't want to reply to this because it would continue it, but I didn't want to leave it up for anyone to read on my blog without me replying.

      HOWEVER, I am always happy to meet in person, I think that would be wiser because one cannot read people over the internet and I usually feel attacked and I imagine you do as well and I don't want to create strife.
      If you want to get coffee, sit down and study the Bible (not debate, not argue, not teach, but to sit down and talk about what we both believe and why in a mature manner) I am happy to do that. My mom has even agreed to meet your mom as well at the same time to talk. That is always open for you.

      Although, I would like to ask, why do I get the impression that my beliefs unnerve y'all? I know you guys don't agree, and I understand that, but I have never tried to push it on anyone. I am always happy to study and I love reaching out to people and starting conversations, but I am not out here trying to shove my beliefs down anyone's throats and I'm trying to remain respectful and loving towards all.
      I have never said I thought you or anyone was going to hell, but if you know my beliefs you know I don't think what you believe is correct, but I know you believe me to be in the wrong as well.

      I am not the first person from the church of Christ at PEP, you'd be surprised how many people you know believe what I do and how many more are coming this year. I really don't think it to be that shocking.

      Once again, always happy to meet up! You know where to find me :)

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  5. So many beautiful words in this post! Welcome back. <3

    theonesthatreallymatter.blogspot.com

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  6. This post is so lovely and heart-felt. <3 Welcome back!

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  7. Welcome back Gray! Such an awesome post. :)

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  8. I love posts like this, and you always rock them <33 All the sweet, happy, life vibes <33 Thank you for making my day even better with this ray of sunshine. :)

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  9. It looks like you had so much fun!!!

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  10. This is so beautiful! <3 <3 <3 And watching Andy Griffith with your siblings in pjs?! -- my childhood! XOXO

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  11. Oh I love this! This is so sweet!

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  12. I loved this, Gray! Also, I have felt like that sometimes, like maybe I've gotten a taste of Heaven. It's amazing. =D Also, the moon is amazing.

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    1. Yes, love that feeling! <3 The moon is the best

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  13. Glad you had a good summer!!!!! Life has been kinda meh for me lately :/

    Lia

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  14. Gray, you said the Holy Spirit can't cover you and that the Holy Spirit guides us through the Bible. But, I'm curious, do you believe that the Holy Spirit dwells in Christians? (1 Corinthians 3:16-17, 1 Corinthians 6:19)

    The Holy Spirit CAN come upon us and rest upon us!

    "The Holy Spirit will rest upon him..." Isaiah 11:2

    "The Holy Spirit fell on them..." Acts 11:15 & Acts 10:44

    Shayne, you mentioned that some people in Acts 19, who were baptized into John's baptism had to be baptized again. The baptism of Mark 1:4 didn't save. But it has the same phrase that you always quote from Acts 2:38 "for the remission of sins."
    Since John's baptism did not save anyone, then such terminology as "for the remission of sins" does not imply to baptismal remission.

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    1. Dear Lilly,
      I would love to answer your questions, however, I am drained and on the internet I feel like my words and the bible verses I give to y'all are easily ignored for the sake of us to keep going back and forth.
      This topic is tough for me to explain still because it took me a while to understand, and thus if I replied on here it would do more harm than good.

      I will give you the same offer I gave your sister though, I am always happy to meet with you, I feel like I come off as mean on here and that truly isn't my intention.

      Email me, text me, call me, we can work out a place, a date, and a time if you're willing. <3

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  15. It sounds like your summer was absolutely lovely!! <3 Best of wishes to you! ^^

    Also, I might be SUPER slow at replies and stuff, but I finally just sent you an email. LOL I don't think I'll slow down for quite a while, so why wait until I'm not busy to send one?? xD

    Anyway, I hope all is well with you!!

    ~ Lily Cat (Boots) | lilycatscountrygirlconfessions.blogspot.com

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    1. It was, thank you! <3

      I just emailed you back. :)

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  16. Summer is so awesome, full of wonderful memories! It looks like yours has been awesome!

    astorydetective.blogspot.com

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    1. Yes it is! I hope yours was amazing as well. <3

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  17. "I like talking to people in the dark because I think I can hear them smile."

    UM. THIS? Yes girl. I loved reading this entire thing. It was like an aesthetic for a novel and I'm so inspired. Summertime is a magical time.

    Jazzy
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    1. Aww, thank you, Jazzy! Summertime certainly is. <33

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  18. wowoooo this was so fun to read!!!!!! (Some of the comments however were not. And I want to say so much but won't right now because I'm processing ;p)

    As for the actual post.
    It's beautiful. Your quirky face is adorable. I need a post about all your crazy writing rules!!! And can I join??? I might even move there just to join you all ;)
    Love that you accepted that guy's hand. Sometimes it's best to do the awkward and not make the guy hate himself for unnecessary rejection. You go, Gray!

    Can't believe my July has been so busy and I'm JUST seeing this. GORGEOUS spirit overflow from you ;D

    keturahskorner.blogspot.com

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    1. I'm with you on that, haha.

      Awww, thank you, Keturah! <3 <3

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  19. This is such a beautiful and aesthetic post.

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  20. I love this post so much: it's just so happy and aesthetic and ������

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